I’m going on a news fast. I’m even going to exclude The Daily Show. That’s a serious news fast. I will click on zero news stories or links on Facebook. No news for 3 months. My mental health needs this. I went without news for years before and it helps my mental state tremendously. It helps me to hate humans less. Right now, my opinion of humans is at an all time low.
I’m also going to stop drinking again. I have until my birthday to decide for how long. When the drinking hiatus is over I plan to not have alcohol in the house. I plan for it to be something we go out for but not sit at home with.
During that time I want to clean out and organize my house. We’ve been here 2.5 years now and that seems about right for how long it takes me to really figure a house out. The minute I figure it out, it seems, something calamitous happens and I have to move. While that may end up happening again, I can’t live my life on the expectation of calamities any more than I can live it on expectation of success.
Expectation is the direct door to disappointment.
So I’m not going to worry about what may or may not happen after I get my house just how I want it to be. I’m going to move forward and make it awesome. Cleaned out and spruced up. Unfunctional made functional.
This is how I will move towards balancing the necessity to work so we can pay our bills and the necessity to write. I need a streamlined well organized comfortable and inspiring space. That will take a lot of energy and time, of course. On Stitch and Boots I’m going to list what needs to happen room by room. A co-worker mentioned that a friend of hers did that and I think it’s brilliant. I will organize what needs to be tackled and then I can refer to the list to find small things to deal with if I get overwhelmed by the project as a whole.
Those three things are going to be the focus of this year. At least in the beginning. The second half will be more about growing my apothecary sales enough to warrant calling it my “apothecary business”. And I want to finish the second draft of Cricket and Grey book 2 by the end of 2015.
I have declared it. So shall it possibly-maybe-probably-hopefully BE.